David Williamson — suffers heart attack from high blood pressure — has out of body experience — becomes a “blackness” which is “everything” and feels “like love” — then becomes an “orb of light.”

“North Carolina is beautiful but Caswell County, the county that I grew up in, is one of the poorest counties in the country and it has a lot of deep rooted racial tension, even to this day it’s one of the highest Klu Klux Klan activity in the country.” “I literally seen the Klu Klux Klan march up and down mainstreet, the most busy street of the town, multiple times.” “While it’s happening I’m watching my aunts, my mother, all of them, just feeling so much pain, so much anger.”

Experiences Anger & Hate

“And it’s affecting me. And it just makes you more angry, and it makes you more angry. So everyday “you start hearing people around you kind of echoing the same hate that they received from the white people around us. You could hear it being echoed in the houses, in school. And it informed how I felt I was supposed to behave, so I just started hating back.” “It’s so painful to be in that space, all the time. I didn’t get to experience anything that made me happy. I was miserable.” “My nervous system was always on edge. I’m always ready to fight. I’m always ready for war.”

Causes Hypertension (High-Blood-Pressure)

“Hypertension is a given, when you’re always operating in an energy where you’re waiting for someone to say something offensive so you can explode 400 years of rage on that person.” So, “I’m dealing with hypertension that I’m not treating. I would check my blood pressure sometimes, and it would be 224 over 190 and I’m going about my day. I didn’t pay attention to the signs that my body was giving me the whole time.” “My body [literally] started telling me that, ‘Hating is killing you.’”

Heart-Attack Incident from Hypertension

“It was February 1st, 2021. I was just sitting in the garage with two of my friends. And I felt this pain. I didn’t feel anything in my chest at all. It was like a rip in my back, in the area behind my heart. And then my shoulder felt like it was about to just fall off.”

“I’m leaving work. I feel just like a tingle, like a sting. I knew this wasn't right. So I’m sitting in my car, thinking, ‘Is this something that’s going to pass?’ I just sit there for a moment. I find a level of stability, where I think, ‘I can tolerate this until I get home.’ So I drove home, I get there. The fluttering and stinging is still happening. Now I’m feeling it in my heart. My son’s Mother, Trish, she’s working from home so I call up to her and I say, ‘I think I need to go to the emergency room, this is not getting better, this is getting worse.’ As we’re in the car, I’m losing my breath, it just feels like I’m suffocating. I’m breathing really deep to try and stay conscious.

We get to the emergency room. I’m kind of lightheaded walking up. They get me on the gurney, and almost immediately, I’m asleep.” “I passed out before I went into the area where they were working on me. But I’m not dead, because my perspective is on the bed looking forward.” “I just see blackness and the people were like dots [far away].”

2. Out of Body Experience (OBE)

“After I saw the blackness and the dots where the people were, my perspective shifted. I was [now] above myself looking down. I saw the whole setup of the room. I saw where the people were . . I was able to see where everybody was.”

“Including a woman that was in the corner of the room. She was holding her face like this (*hands to cheeks*) and she was really sad that I was dying. And initially, when I left my body, that was one of the things that disturbed me the most. I was thinking, ‘What in the world is she sad for! This is so beautiful. This is so perfect.” “My back’s not hurting. I’m not confused about what’s happening.” “This is the most alive that I’ve ever felt.” [I wanted to scream to her,] ‘That guy is dead, but I’m alive!’“

Instant Clarity or Understanding During OBE

“Once I did leave my body and I looked down, there were a lot of things that I came to understand. Like, ‘he’s dead,’ ‘the body’s dead,’ ‘the mind is dead,’ ‘the ego’s dead.’ After that kind of series of realizations I thought, ‘Well then what’s left? What am I?’ And the words (answer) flooded in—very clearly, it was audible. These were ‘light,’ ‘energy,’ ‘soul,’ ‘spirit,’ ‘awareness.’ It was just a flood of words, they weren’t in a line, like mechanical, it was like a bunch of voices just said these words. But it felt like it was me explaining this to myself.”

“Everything that I looked at, every question I had, the clarity was instantaneous.” So “I was like ‘What's that?’ ‘What’s that?’ ‘What’s that?’ It was like a baby, having a ‘Awe,’ everything was an ‘Awe’ moment. I moved from one thing to the next with that childlike wonder and amazement at what I was seeing.”

Isn’t A Human, But An Awareness Observing During OBE

“I’m watching everything.” But “there was no memory of this human experience that I was referring any of it back to. There was no mind like that. It was just an awareness that was beholding these things and integrating them, like instantly.”

3. The Nothingness (”Space”) — The Light — Sparks of Light Forming (”Star Forming”)

“After a while I’m paying attention to stuff, and I just kind of casually take my attention up, and when I do that instantly I’m in space [likely not ordinary space, but the nothingness]. There was no tunnel, there was no anything.” “I quickly became aware of what people call the light. It was up and to the right of me. The emergency room was down and to the left of me. And I was in that angle looking forward, out into space . What was in front of me was the star forming region [perhaps his way of saying he saw the formation of the sparks of light/energy, but put into terms he knows.].”

4. The Blackness That’s One with Everything

“What was beneath me was what people call the void. I felt like I was in the blackness.” A “black space.”

Not Separate From Blackness, Part Of It

“I felt like I was in the blackness.” “It was enveloping me like velvet [fabric].” “I felt like a part of that whole thing. I didn’t feel separate from it at all.”

Blackness Felt Like Love, Being Love

“It felt like love.” “Every other aspect of being disemnodied for me [felt like love], I felt like love. Everything felt like love. I felt like the system that I found myself in was just love and I was just a part of it.”

Blackness Felt Like Everything (Every Experience & Possibility)

“But it also felt like it was everything. It felt like every possibility, every past experience, everything was in the void, was in that black space.”

“When I looked into it [the blackness], it reacted, it responded. If there was any kind of thought that wasn’t complete, it was complete instantly. If there was a notion of missing something, the satisfaction of having it was there, before the missing was even fully felt.”

[Much after the entire experience, I remember] “There’s a woman who I was talking with, who was like ‘Well, I don’t want to just magically forget people that I love in this life.’ I was trying to explain to her that you’re not going to be, when you leave this body, a human body with a brain that has memory. You’re going to be this energy that’s so connected to this whole thing — and that experience is integrated in you. There is no missing, that experience isn’t gone. It’s always accessible. Every part of this experience that you have is etched in infinity. There is no something disappearing and never being experienceable again—it’s always there. So, you don’t miss anything. There’s no missing anything. You’re more integrated with the system outside of the body than you are in the body. And that’s kind of what we are. An individual node, accumulating a perspective, that ultimately gets fed back into the system, and becomes a possibility, an option, for everybody else in the system, forever. So your experience isn’t ever lost.”

Blackness Made of Energy

“Everything was energy.” “This energy that’s so connected.”

5. 🫧 Becomes “Orb of Light” (Spark-Like Energy Form)

🫧 Transition From Looking at Light to Becoming Orb of Light

“There was a point where I was looking up at the light. It was almost like I was trying to decide if I was going to even entertain it or not. And I looked back up at it, and I looked back down into the emergency room. When my attention went from the upper and back to the left, it went through me. And I was just a glowing orb of light. That’s what I appeared to be.”

🫧 Orb of Light is Detached From Human Identity

“I experienced the orb of light as being perfect—it’s not confused, it’s not being contextualized in the human sense where it's gonna cheerlead for one side or the other. It was disconnected somewhat from the specifics of the human experience. It was just aware, ‘Ah, you were in that body. Ah, that body’s dead.’ It was not like, ‘Oh, you were a black activist and you need to go back, and hop in that body and get to the fight.’ No, no, there was no more fighting.” “The [human] pain, the confusion, the identity stuff was gone.”

🫧 We Are All Orbs Of Light, Not Physical Bodies

“I had never felt more alive than when I was that glowing orb of light. I had never felt more aware of what was happening on this planet. In that state, I [finally] understood everything.” I realized that “we are all orbs of light, we’re not these bodies.”

6. Revived with Electrical Shock + Going Back into Body

Then “I kind of just watched everything. I watched them continue to defibrillate me (electrical shock to heart through chest)” “I saw the people that were around me involved with the resuscitation effort.”

“Some of them were kind of mechanical—they were just doing their job, they didn’t have any emotional investment, and I could feel all that. But, there was one person that was in front kind of to the [right] angle, and he was really going through. In his mind, it was like he’s responsible for making sure that I don’t die and he didn’t want that, he didn’t want to feel bad, he didn’t want to be responsible for that.”

There was also “a woman that was in the corner of the room. She was holding her face like this (*hands to cheeks*) and she was really sad that I was dying.” “If there’s any small part of this experience that I was disappointed about was that in that moment of me trying to figure out how to communicate with her, I couldn’t. I couldn’t tell her, ‘No, don't be sad. That guy is dead, but I’m alive. My back’s not hurting, I’m not confused about what’s happening. This is the most alive that I’ve ever felt!”

*They did an electrical shock to heart with defibrillator that finally brought him back*

“So when I opened my eyes, the first thing I blurted out was, ‘ARE YOU OKAY!?’ and I was looking for the woman (who felt sad for him dying). And then after that blurt I looked up at the man that was up in front of me to the right (the guy who felt responsible for him dying), and I said, ‘Are you okay?’ But he cut me off and said, ‘No, are you okay?’ And somebody from the right said, ‘You didn’t feel that?’ And I almost said, ‘Feel what?’

But I looked down and I saw this rubber pad. The defibrillator pads were in the person’s hands, like they were about to defibrillate me again. But I saw this rubber pad on my chest, where the indention from the defibrillator pads were, and I looked down and thought, ‘Oh, you really were dead!’ That’s when it all flooded into my mind, my human awareness. Because I saw the pad where they were defibrillating me (when back in the body), and I had seen them defibrillating me from above (when out of the body), and it all connected.”

“So to me [all this] just clarifies that [it was] not a hallucination.” Because “while I was out of my body, I saw in real time what was happening to me, and everything when I opened my eyes continued in real time. There was no separation in my awareness—no gap in between what I was experiencing—whether I was in the body or out of the body. It was a continual flow of experience.”